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Thats so true... hahaha \(^v^)/

Being in homosexuality realm, people like us would have the ability to detect the others.
Its like our head are attached with an invisible, humongous radar that activates all the time. Have ever you wonder whether is the gaydar or just simply the traits that make people seem gay innate?

I'm left handed, my index finger are higher/relatively same length with my ring finger, i have counterclockwise whorl and increased density of fingerprint ridges on the thumb and pinkie of the left hand. And I'm Gay. But is that what makes me Gay?

For years the subject of homosexuality are being a subject for studies in science and are no longer a taboo or regarded as a disease. The studies are by finding common biological traits which might help in one day that would shed some light on the origins of sexual orientation.
Or simply the "Gay Gene".

A quick summary from what the article says,

At first read, their findings seem like a string of unlinked,

EXAMPLE : Hand Dexterity (Male)
Gay men and lesbians have a 50 percent greater chance of being left-handed or ambidextrous than their straight counterparts.

esoteric observations. Statistically, for instance, gay men and lesbians have about a 50 percent greater chance of being left-handed or ambidextrous than straight men or women.

EXAMPLE : Digit Proportions (Female)
The index fingers of most straight men are shorter than their ring fingers, and for most women they are the same length or longer. Gay men and lesbians tend to have reversed ratios.

The relative lengths of our fingers offer another hint: The index fingers of most straight men are shorter than their ring fingers, while for most women they are closer in length, or even reversed in ratio. But some researchers have noted that gay men are likely to have finger-length ratios more in line with those of straight women, and a study of self-described “butch” lesbians showed significantly masculinized ratios.

The same goes for the way we hear, the way we process spatial reasoning, and even the ring of our voices. One study, involving tape-recordings of gay and straight men, found that 75 percent of gay men sounded gay to a general audience. It’s unclear what the listeners responded to, whether there is a recognized gay “accent” or vocal quality. And there is no hint as to whether this idiosyncrasy is owed to biology or cultural influences—only that it’s unmistakable.

Richard Lippa, a psychologist from California State University at Fullerton, is one of the leading cataloguers of the many ways in which gay people are different. I caught up with him a few weeks ago at a booth at the Long Beach Pride Festival in Southern California, where he was researching another hypothesis—that the hair-whorl patterns on gay heads are more likely to go counterclockwise.

EXAMPLE : Hair Whorl (Men)
Gay men are more likely than straight men to have a counterclockwise whorl.

If you like to read more about it, come here The Science of Gaydar and what does gay look like

Well from what they have collected, what i can say it might be true or otherwise. It might also be coincidence as the probabilities are high as compared to the population of the world. the chances of us having the same traits are there.

As what people say, "You can find another 7 version of yourself in other parts of the continent"

Have yourself some reading and say.

First of all to my readers, sorry ar.. I apologize first. m(_ _)m

What the heck? Whats wrong with the blogger.com wor? (*`^´*)9 "@!##$%*^#$"
About to post, then it went " Sorry blogger cannot process bla bla bla.." until i cannot sign in to the home also.. for nearly an hour... Now i have to type all over again.. (T____T)
(=O>~<)=O*☆`[punching pillow bag]

Back to my topic for the day.. I CAN'T WAIT FOR LOVE

Before that let me teach you how to say " I LOVE YOU" in 6 different language to use on your loved one. Alright? (Spanish, Korean, Italian, Japanese, Dutch and French )

I hope time passes very fast with just a snap of a finger... Why? because next Friday i will be staying in his home. This is due to my Genting trip performance. This past few days, we text-ed and call each other to tell how we missed and love each other and how are our day have been.

When i ask him whether I can stay at his home, he was happy i guess.. Are you?
He said,"Of course can, it's your home too. You can take care of me also"
I blushed. I was about to erupt with volcanic acid gushing out from my ear... hahaha love

I asked him whether he want to taste my cooking that night.

Then he told me that its going to be late. "How about Korean food?", he asked me. Thus i replied,"Sure". I like Korean food. I like anything about Korean.
That's explain with my Korean words and Korean songs in the blog. \(^U^)/

The favourite dish that i like is the bulgogi,불거기. It is a Korean dish that usually consists of marinated barbecued beef, although chicken or pork may also be used.

Bulgogi literally means "fire meat" in Korean (this refers to the cooking technique—over an open flame—rather than the dish's spiciness) The term is also applied to variations such as dak bulgogi (made with chicken) or dweji bulgogi (made with pork), although the seasonings are different.
This dish is sometimes served with a side of lettuce or any leafy vegetable to be used to wrap a slice of the meat and dab it with ssamjang, 쌈장 sauce.

I can't wait to feed him the dish. Aahhh.. (^_)-<*(O^) open wide wide.. Hope to make a mess on his face..kekeke.. I misses him. I misses his laughter.
When I have finally meet him, I think I'm going to jump on him and not going to let go. Going to hug him 24 hour.. keke.. but that's impossible lor.. even in the jamban meh..

After reading the news on Beyonce postponing her concert "I AM.." in Malaysia which supposed to be on the 25th October, I nearly collapsed flat to the floor. In her official website states;

Statement from Music World Entertainment/Columbia Records:

The “I AM…” tour stop in Malaysia, originally scheduled for October 25, 2009 by Beyoncé, has been postponed indefinitely. The entertainer remains respectful of the people and cultures of all nations and holds the fans of Malaysia in highest regards.

She had her concert cancelled here already 2 years ago and move to Indonesia who are also majority Muslim but with more relaxed rules and regulations.

A statement from them;

“We are not against entertainment, but it’s the way she performs — her gyrating moves on stage and her sexy outfits. It will erode the moral values of our young people,” PAS youth chief Nasruddin Hassan Tantawi told.

"We oppose such concert to be held and we will take action to prevent such concert to be held in Malaysia" he added

What outrageous and stupid comment from him i have to say. Her skimpy outfit, her dance move are way too sexy that it will impact on the social value? Well hello? Wake up cavemen.. do you want me to slap you?
Dude strengthen the spiritual and it will not effected anyone.. get it? rather than trying to banning it why not find the root of all the problems and fix it? back to your religion guidance. If it were that easy to just see someone dance that way and got high*ahem* that individual must have problem. Who even would unless the commentators yourself..

Not just Beyonce alone, lines of foreign artiste were not spared from this kind of ridiculous, stupid, not building comment made even MJ. Here are the list of them;

US hip-hop band the Black Eyed Peas played in front of a multiracial audience last month after a ban on Muslims was lifted, although frontwoman Fergie was forced to cover up.

PAS called for Danish band Michael Learns to Rock to be banned from performing in September, saying it was an insult to Muslims during the fasting month of Ramadan.

For Bi(Rain) concert held in 2007 he was warned not to be topless in his concert like this;

It also held protests against Canadian rocker Avril Lavigne’s concert last year after failing to have it banned. How? By passing flyer's outside her concert urging the youths to turn back

While a performance by Gwen Stefani went ahead despite allegations it would weaken youth “morally and mentally”.

Pussycat Dolls concert in 2006 was fined 10,000 ringgit (US$2,857) after the U.S. girl group was accused of flouting decency regulations.

Mariah Carey even received the same treatment when she was here in 2004 like Beyonce now.

"Everyone knows Mariah Carey presents herself in a sexy, unacceptable and almost vulgar manner," Ahmad Sabki Yusof, a leader of the fundamentalist Pan-Malaysian Islamic Party's youth wing said.
"She is not an appropriate role model for young Malaysians," he told.

Well what else can we expect from PAS here and now and future. Every concert to be held in Malaysia are all seem to be a bad influence towards the society. What a beneficial party are you?

They do not represent the whole society here. They just want a glimpse of lime light in the media or they will be redundant. Nothing to do. I hope Beyonce can get through this idiots people and hear her saying in stage;

(/^0^)/~~~~~"Beyonce Boleh!!"~~~~~\(^0^\)

To PAS you FAILED terribly. d(^_^d)

After the show in the cinema, we went to have a little dessert. At first i introduced to him the HONEYMOON, but it was packed of people. We waited awhile but because nearly all the customer haven't been served yet, i bring him to another shop in the ASIAN AVENUE.

We sat down at the sofa and we were looking at the menu. Too bad that day no "tong sui" was available.. hmph.. (*￣m￣) So we ordered juice to drink. We chat.
Our hands were touching each other all the time..

I remembered our hands touched together accidentally when we were walking, he laughed..
" What so funny wor?" (-（○___○）-) *oink*

I was thinking to order the Christmas Special menu at there. HAHAHA!!! Something called "First Love" or something like that cheeky words. I don't really remember even my blog says "REMEMBER"（　ﾟ Дﾟ） .. Hahaha..\（⌒▽⌒）/

After that he ask me to go out from pyramid. So i nodded. Then he drove me around in the car. He hold my hand most of the time in the car.
Round and round and round (^_^)( ^_)( ^)( )(^ )(_^ )(^_^).. like merry go round..it is so sweet... i love that kind of environment.
Just the physical touch and the connection, sensitivity, erm.. Not sex lol.. not always about that OK? d(-_^d) hahaha...

I didn't know how many times i text-ed to him stating that i miss him.. Just so badly..

I gave him the URL of this blog just this morning.. and he will read it tonight. Anticipation of what he thinks lol.. i wonder?????????

This movie was recommended by one of my friends. She say its funny and must watch movie. So i search and i found it.

This movie is a co-production with South Korean powerhouse CJ Entertainment.

The story goes like this.

Comic book artist Sophie (Zhang Ziyi) is a sweet and carefree girl brimming with creativity. She and her handsome surgeon boyfriend of two years, Jeff (So Ji-Sub), are the perfect couple. After his marriage proposal to her in front of her family and all of her friends, Sophie is the happiest person in the world.

One day, Jeff meets a famous movie star, Joanna (Fan Bingbing), during a surgical procedure. Immediately afterwards, he breaks up with Sophie.

Devastated, Sophie takes to bed. She is unable to face anyone, especially her mother who had been planning the wedding. Sophie decides to cover up the break-up, with only her 2 best friends, Lucy (Ruby Lin) and Lily (Yao Chen) knowing the truth. She comes up with a master plan : she will use the remaining two months before the wedding date to do whatever it takes to get Jeff back.

She also plans to publish her many strategies in her new comic book. She wants to show women everywhere how to use a 'scientific' approach to win love back.

Sophie's first strategy of "Generosity and Forgiveness" does not go well. At a Halloween part, hosted by Gorden(Peter Ho), a photographer, she drowns her sorrows in alcohol. She stumbles upon a photo of Gorden and Joanna together which immediately gives her the idea of forming an alliance with him. Gordon agrees to become Sophie's partner and her guest for revenge becomes a roller coaster of comedic turns and twists. Together they create a duo filled with surprises and adventures. But there seems more to meet the eye with their relationship.

Will Sophie win her man back? Is revenge all that it's made out to be? Is it madness or is it love? Sometimes love can be found in the most unlikely places.

This movie is in Chinese. Why in Korean poster? well the korean version are much better.. I like the movie. You should watch it too..

I already misses him badly.
I don't know whether is it a love first sight or the badly in need of boy friend in me is the prank of it.

After getting know of him for few days through talking through phone before even meeting him, we found quite of thing that are in common about each other.

Well first we both are Sagittarius. His birthday is on the 23/11 while mine is on the 22/12. The alpha and beta, beginning and the end. Just one month apart. I find that hilarious.. and we both share the same surname. He was surprised even further and he said "Ain't that incest now?" I was speechless but both of us laughed at the end.

So after that he ask me out. I was reluctant to do it, and tried to find excuses but at the end i gave in. I said "Alright" So our place of meeting was at the Pyramid.

Boy, he make me waited for an hour, but he did tell that he has something to do and then he went to saloon before meeting me. I was quite surprised. "He went to saloon? He must be taking care of his look also." I add some points yet deducted some for turning up late. LOL

So i spent my time in the POPULAR shop and search for a book to read. After like walking aimlessly in the fiction section and i saw one. The book titled is "Where are you, Lucy Lu"

So i sat down and read the book. I was literally laughing at Lucy character. the silly girl of getting a glimpse and try to strike a conversation with a handsome stranger name Jade. Well they have 12 hours journey together in a rent car back to London for New Year Eve's with their family. I like the character of her. Time flew and he text-ed me;

"At carpark now :-P wait wait :-P"
[12:57:37PM]

"I at popular now. I go washroom first."

"kk take your time :-D"
[12:59:19PM]

I must make myself fresh too you know.. So i went and he text-ed me again.
I called him to tell him that i am waiting him outside POPULAR and he said he was inside. So i waited for him to come out. He approached me. "Hi"
My response was a smack on his shoulder back, " How can you make me wait for an hour?I don't care you have to give me a treat"
He replied" Alright, I'm sorry"

So we went to have our lunch at ASIAN AVENUE.


After having the lunch we went to the cinema and we bought tickets to PANDORUM and its the side seat. Too close too the screen. Well then we spent a bit of time strolling around the mall and he talk. I realised it was 10 minutes left before the start of the show and then we walk past a comic shop. He said "Can i go in? There's time left right?" Well i don't like being in late, but since he ask i said "Yes"

He was looking around the shop. I was thinking " Cute larh, like comics book." He is not a geek.He works as interior designer. A reminder. He is 23 year old. 170cm tall and weighs around 50kg-55kg. So its quite compatible with me lol... Hahaha (/^0^)/

The movie was good. Noisy and tense. People of new breed eating people. The mystery is how they evolved and where they come from? I jumped up from my seat few times because of the sudden noises or actions. I saw him giggled beside me.
(T_________T) "I just make a fool of myself"

Anyway, then he said he was cold and he reach for my hand. Not long after that we started to get clingy to each other in the cinema. My head was on his shoulder. His leg tangle with mine. Luckily it was the side seat and front. People couldn't notice lor... His reached to my lap.

His said my hand is sweaty and laughed. Of course lor.. warming myself up in the cold cinema.. Haizzz.. another defect act from me ＿|￣|○

I like his shoulder and his chest.Putting my head there is so comfortable. I don't know why. I really liked it.. (>_<)

Forgive me for bitching today. This past few days i don't know what when wrong in my head. it's like an virus had infected my thoughts, actions, and even my vocab. I can't seem to do everything right till now. Everything does not seem to go my way. THE WAY I WANT.

A friend ditch me in KL last week. I have to spend a total RM 60 back and forth. Boy.. the next time i met him again i sure will give him a smack. I hate people like that. Promises not fulfilled. I waited for more than an hour there. Thanks for making me look like an idiot under the scotching hot sun. JEEZ. Patiently i waited. TILL TO NO AVAIL I FED UP. I went back. Luckily i had a good taxi listener. I rant all on him. Such a nice guy. For that service to listen to my bitch ranting. HAHA. We talk a lot in the car. Very nice guy. Talk about a politics, economy, ATLANTUYA and etc.

Haiz.. its ok if you can't come. At least make the bloody effort to tell me you can't make it or you going to be late. But no you didn't. You think I don't have other thing to do is it? Bitch. Damn you. I will not going to be that idiot anymore. I treated everyone equally nice, more actually and this is what i get. Friends who took the opportuninty to kill you in everyway. I know im cute and adorable guy but not to that extent that you think I have no TEMPER.. JUST YOU SO WAIT!!

Lucky that day i went to gym to vent my anger on the treadmill. Hope its no spoilt. I could see people at the side are like looking at me. DUMP DAMP DUMP DAMP... the sound running. My anger was gone after gym classes of Zumba fitness ( dance all out), BodyCombat ( punching him in my mind), Bodypump ( cracking his bone in my hand).

Enough of my ranting. I hope nothing of this happen again. NEVER EVER. IF DO I'LL FREAKING DO SOMETHING TO YOU. Now with my mood swings, even my acne are pushing its way out. Haizzzzzzz..

It's about time for me to post something in here. So long already i haven't post anything in here. Well i was just wondering why guys are horny?
As posted by Willy gor about gay sex, i have something to rant about in here lor...
He has his opinion and i guess everyone will be different as well. The world will be less colourful without it..

I was hoping for more true gay relationship rather more than having sex all the time. Well we need sex to become more intimate in relationship. I didn't doubt it. I wan more of the feeling. Like this picture below. The happiness.


Anyway, for the past few months i have been actively going to gym. I want to live a healthy lifestyle and make myself fit is the reason why i have been doing so. At first it was nice and enjoyable with the gym, class, and fitness routine. Until one day i was literally hit by 4 guys. ( Not physical beating arrr..)

It was on Tuesday and i went to the locker to change for a bath. Well while i was hanging my towel I saw a guy 45 degree opposite me in the shower room, he left an small opening and he was looking at me. Well i ignored. As i was bathing, i felt someone watching me, so i took a peek outside and i confirmed he was watching me. This time he showed me his GorGor to me. Not even didi ok.... (-___-!!).

What the hell... i know i am hot and sexy!! Don't have to do that so fast.. Hahaha



I was so paranoid i closed my curtain and stay in there. After he left, i straight went out. What the hell???? Another guy was doing the same thing to me too when i was going out.. JEEZZZ!!! So i went into the spa and sit right inside. I put the exercise towel on top covering the side of my face. Then the sense of someone is looking at you is there again. This is a different guy. He kept looking at me from the other side. I was so scared, i went out, go to the sauna.
When i went into the sauna a guy was standing up. So i stand near to the door. In case anything happen i just dash out. Then 5 minutes later, i heard a sound. It was the sound of jerking off. I looked up and i saw the stick and his expression looking at me.. DANG!!!!
I should Clorox my eye .. haha

I went out and guess what???? The guy that was seducing me at first was coming in. HMMMM!!!! Haizzz... I couldn't take it anymore, at the end i take a quick bath and leave.

Why? Haiz... After that day, worst still more and more of it happening on me and one of my friend.. Well his case was worst still than mine.. HAHAHA!!