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The topic for today will be ginger. Yes! Ginger. Do you know ginger is good for your health? In many ways, for blood circulation, for nausea and many more. They say the older the ginger the better it is.

i like old ginger.

You must be kidding right? Topic is about ginger. I was just pulling your leg. Today topic is indeed about old ginger. Old ginger direct translated to Chinese is "Lau Jiang". What does it mean?

Literally is old ginger but another meaning was older men. Yes. I like older guys. I dated younger ones and the same age as mine but the results of the relationships was horrible. I wanted to have a stable relationship with its normal ups and down, yet the other party are just playing around. So tak ngam... clash.. break up.. sad.. cry.. hide in the corner..

The cycle continues like that for 3 times. Then i met someone i holds truly for more than a year now. I hope it will still continue forever in my hearts but now it appears that we have distanced away from each other. Haiz~~

Anyway, the reason i like older guys was because of their maturity, the depth of their thinking, the quality of the talks i had with them, and don't mention the experience they had in bed. LOL!
Older guys in my books are not 3-5 years gap, but extended to 10 years more even.

Mind you, not all old guys look like the one in the picture. Old, Ugly, Sag, and Aged to the extent if i stand besides them, i can called him "Gong Gong"

hi cutie.. eek

If there is any like that, i might run away to the other realm.

The ones that i met were young looking "awet muda" especially a guy called Damien. I met him for lunch together and i was shocked to see him. He make me fly. LOL! Anyway i do know how i am going to be like in another 18 Years. Just like him.

Most of them are fit, presentable, gentlemen, and yup... all of that make me attracted to them. The most important thing is "Brains with wits attracts me" not longer the physical or looks.
If they do come with it, than is a perfect package... and I LIKE!!!
NGO CHIP SAU HMM DOU LORH!

How about you? What type of ginger you like??

For the past weeks beginning from 21st of May, my world collapsed and i need to stay strong. I patched them up by myself piece by piece of the broken hearts. Seeing her cry makes me sad but there's nothing i can do but to comfort her and to be there with her. Hold her hands and wrap my arms around her shoulder as she buried her teary face into her dried palms.

I knew that these day will come when we got the news that he could no longer live anymore. I could hear her cry on the phone when i was in the bedroom. It was messy up in my head that time.

With a given short period of time, we as family try to make his life as full as we can. My mom has nothing to offer but to give some money to him to get some of the things that he loves to eat. It was not much but he did not want to receive. He was my "Da Gu". My big uncle.


Out of the nine siblings, my mom was the eldest of all and he was the second. I still remember every time he will feed his two dogs after work. Carries them to clinics when they were sick. No complaints even it was hardship in his life. He work it out. He was the kind, innocent and pure as he believes in everyone even stranger and people who had cheated him or take advantage of his position. He never hold grudges to anyone nor even you can say angry or mad. It was never in his life. Just happy. My mom used to tell stories of how she took care all of the siblings by her own.The last week of his life were lying on the hospital bed, having difficulty in his breathing, cant eat as his throat is painful. Cant eat much nor drink much. His body was really skinny to the extent that his bone shoulder can be seen. It was unbearable to see. I just stood beside my mom as she starts to tear away.

We went there almost every night without fail for the past week and even my finals is next week i fret to not go in me but i still went. Thinking is a journey that my god wants me to got through and my brother nor father could handle my mom. So i went thinking is best for me to go for my mom. Hence i went.

Till the day he left the hospital to the day he went back to his home. The very next day we received a call from the home nurse saying he having difficulty in breathing. My mom called my brother to come and fetch, i turned my head to my mum "We just walk there as fast as possible." Our grandma home is just very near. So we apparently almost ran there and my brother caught us half way, he drives us through.

We step in the family hall heading to his room, we already heard popo crying loudly. The nurse came to us and said "He just passed away." My mom cried and yelled " Ah Wee! Why you didnt wait for me to come? How could you just go like that? I ran here."

My first reaction was "Harh!" and my eyes was filled with tears immediately but i swallowed it as hard as possible and helped my mom in her grieving. My question was same as my mom. Why?

I direct her to the sofa seat and just see her cried by her side while i hold her hands.

The moment was unbearable. I couldn't cry even when i was in my room. Just couldn't. Tears just couldn't come gushing out.

3 days for the funeral and all i could do best is to help out folding money paper as much as i could non stop for my uncle to use in the other world. Hoping and praying that he would be in peace and cross safely into the other world.

Seeing my other uncle cried as we walked with the procession, as the casket went into the burning chamber.. my tears just flow out. Like that... and as day passes, my mom still misses him.

We do. I do.

I was at the Summit the other day having a dinner with my family in a restaurant after sending my bag for a repair. I was seating facing into the shop and i noticed at the left side at about 45degree angle one of the guy was looking at me.

While i eat, at the corner of my eye, i could see that he kept taking a glance to look at me. I just pretended to not notice. He stands up and went to the cashier to pay. After that he left with another partner of his (the pink shirt). They were having dinner together.

Yeah! I took the picture cause i bumped into him twice.. and the way he walked and looked at me.. totally GAY and his partner as well!! They walk to KONG WOH TONG to get the heat cool down after seeing me?? Just kidding.. Jeez kinda feel im someone who always post these as well.. LOL..


Yikes.. my first time doing this somemore.. LOL...

On the last Friday, everything seems to go wrong and i mean terribly wrong. It was the full moon.
It was not a normal full moon. It was a special full moon. It effected me in a different way that i could not have imagine.

In fact, I didn't turn into a werewolf where my shirts all ripped off and i starts to grow hair, growl at the top of home bumbung... No. Not that.


It was in fact whatever i touches, or uses that day it is spoiled. I carried my bag and one thing after that it snapped. Then i wear slipper, it snapped as well. Turn on my lap top, blank screen. Hard disk spoiled after confirming with my older brother. Ear phone no sound as well.

The full moon was too powerful to me. Too evil.

Cant get any worst than that right? Well my mom argued with my 2nd brother which i now proudly to referred him as a "bastard chauvinist shit guy on the earth who doesn't dare to admit on earth". Its like Armageddon in the home. I will have a post about that bastard don't worry.

Luckily when i touch myself i didn't get spoiled. I'm still alive. Fuh!

Let me introduce you all to him. His name is Txawjvam Hawj! A hmong but raised and brought in the States.

American name is Calvin Her.
Age: 18
DOB:29 September 1993

Few picture of this charming cutie here.. I just cant stop myself from Awww~~

His video in youtube. Check it out.

Watch this if you haven't. Quite funny to watch to me. Seeing the groom stuck in between trying to resolve the quarrel of the fight i can say.