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For all you know that i am only interested in the same sex and forever will do (Sorry to disappoint anyone as i had special plans to post in my blog to reveal about me more which is coming soon).... However i do still would like to feel how is it like being approached by the opposite sex. I want to have the feel of it.

I don't know why recently the urged keeps growing and it never fades. Like the need of sex with Jay. Just joking.

What's the factor? Why? Why till now I'm not being approached or least being compliment by any girls out there (alright it was once last year) or asked for my phone to get to know me?? wink*
All i do get was guys coming asking me for my number, flirting with me and etc.. sigh* is it to much to ask?? It was flattering at first but then i want girls too.... (/*O*)/

Am i too small?( but kecil-kecil cili padi) Am i too obvious that i am PLU?? Am i not what all girls wants?? Why why?? I'm just complaining. Don't mind me..

Project will coming soon..still thinking about posting... hmmm?? should i or should i not??

P/S: Jay, laugong, Laupo still loves you.. muack*

I was planning actually not to write about it. Well oh well boredom starts to pill up in me while waiting for transport to go back home and my dear requested me to write it on. I was asking why should i post it up. He answered because you write it before and should never stop writing it.

So here it goes again a blog post explicitly only for people above 18. I'm warning again. Only above 18. If you are not, please do click exit button and/or stop reading here.

For those who are working while reading this blog, i promised not to post any funny pictures in here like the previous post. I don't want your boss saw it while you are working and you are been questioned. The only way to save it is not to lie. Say "Boss i like this" and you share it with your boss. He might like it. HAHAAH!!! Hope you don't get fired. LMAO!!!

Some people asked me. Do you do it that day?? Where? In Pulau Ketam??

First of all Pulau Ketam is not my choice to do it there. You think this is Jap porno is it where they does it in a great way. I'm not. HAHAHAH!!! Not in mud with crabs and fish. I already had a Pulau Ketam of my own already which is my laugong house. Enuff of Ketam.

Sweet and short we had it in Fitness First bath area. In there together. In the shower room. Yup!! If this satisfy your answer it is good.

A very quickie session but a very nice and hot one. We went in when no one was looking and we hugged each other and kissed under the shower. The water was flowing done freely on our body leaving no space for the water in between us flowing. Our body was so tight together and then Jay when to the back and start to insert it in. I moaned and then he start to hump me from the back. I immediately get the feeling of orgasm . I started to ask him do it faster and harder. He held me tight from the back and does as what i say. He jerks me off while humping me. Trying to be aware of surrounding his anxiety makes the session hotter.

My head turns to the back and his lip reached to mine. He like it so much that he starts to kiss me passionatley. The water still flows on us. Our body were all wet and drenched yet we were still having the session like never before we did. It was the best ever session that i had. In no time he cummed in me while holding me back tightly. He gave me a kissed. I turned around and frenched kissed him. He jerks me again and i shoot a load on to his body.

We quickly showered together and leave the place.

Yup thats it. Short and sweet. Fast and furious.

Academy Award nominee and Golden Globe winner Sigourney Weaver stars in this emotional true story about a 1970s religious suburban housewife and mother who struggles to accept her young son Bobby being gay hails from a devoutly Christian family.

Lately Bobby's been questioning his own sexuality, and upon confiding this information to his older brother, the news quickly circulates to their parents and other siblings. While Bobby's father and siblings resolve to stand by him despite their opposition to his startling revelation, his mother Mary believes that her son is committing a sin, and encourages him to change his ways with the help of the church.

Despondent over his experiences in the church, Bobby decides that his best option is to move out of the family home, all the while hoping that his mother will find a means of accepting him for who he is. But Mary is staunch in her position, and when Bobby realizes he'll never live up to his mother's expectations he takes his own life.

Devastated, Mary seeks consolation from her pastor but fails to find the answers she's looking for. In time, Mary begins a dialogue with the gay community, and discovers that sometimes support can come from the places we least expect. What happens to Bobby is tragic and causes Mary to question her faith; ultimately this mom changes her views in ways that she never could have imagined.

Review:
When i watched it, I felt how bobby was suffering. Being a christian myself makes me think am i worthy to be one. My life and family is complicated. Being sole christian from a devoted Buddhist-Chinese tradition family makes life more complicated enough. I find myself hard to cope with the surroundings at first when i started to realize myself attracted to men. Tried so hard to change myself but ended myself up in depression and withdrawal from the surroundings. I started to fake from who i truly was. After that when i converted to christian hoping to find solution to my problems, prays everyday, keep reading the bible and cries and beg forgiveness till one day i heard him saying "You are who you are and i loved you as who you are" I asked lord again but I'm gay. He repeats the same thing again.

Because of the lord i find strength to live on. If without him i think i will have long gone from the world. I stayed on and be who as i am. The David people all knew. David who looks small but strong in inside. nothing can bring me down. I am who i am.(suddenly this verse so similar with Eric's' blog) Hahaha!!

Glad that people who accept me who as i am. I'm still me. Hopefully one day i have the courage myself and from the lord to tell my parents.. well first I'm gay and second I'm christian. Buy one get one free.. 2 devastating news to my family. Ready for the eruption.. HAHAHAHA!!!

It is a one film that you have to understand and watched how we suffered and the position we were and was in for heterosexual and homophobics and religious people.

THINK!!!!

I know you guy have been waiting for my 2nd post for the trip in pulau ketam. Well here it is.

After we reached and explored a bit if the island we decided to have our lunch. We went to a restaurant and ordered the dish. Here is a glimpse of the yummy sea food... trying so hard to forget the toilet incident,


We ordered prawns, fish ball soup and lala(hidden from pic). The total is about 60rm something. I still had the receipt with me. So expensive but oh well is ketam anyway. They try to make full use of our pocket money.

After eating we explored again. We walked until we reached to a school. They are having a wedding dinner there and Jay so boldly went in just like that. Crashing people wedding party. IM LIKE WHAT!!! I was dragging him away from it and yet he still decided to go in. Saying everything is fine. He walked in just like that. I'm like an idiot standing outside there so i forced myself in and pretended I'm one of the people there.

To be frank this is the most embarrassing stuff i have done, fun yet scary... HAHAHA!!! Luckily people in ketam for that wedding dinner did not really dressed up as nice as in the city. GOWNS, SUITS, TUXES, but short pants and slippers most of them. We dressed more better than them and well it fits well. HAHAHA!!!

He walked in just like that and i followed him closely like a child fearing of losing his parents and i kept whispering to him "Lets go Lau gong". He kept walking and say "Its' fine" Then he said he wanted to go to toilet. So i followed him. Then he went into unlocked classroom and look at the books on the table. He later saw a cane and he kept the cane hidden behind a rack book,

I was like what are you doing. He said is wrong to cane a student. Not the right method of teaching the students. So i was like still don't hide it. Yet he hide it and laughed. Poor and pity student when the teacher asked who hide the cane. None of them but Jay. He shall be punished.

Here he kept teasing me. Wanting to do it here. I'm like public is here. Then he went behind me and try to unzip my pants while i was watching done looking at the golden crab. I'm like so shocked. Then came a man out from the manufacturer. Lucky... He so unpredictable.. Well that's what i like about him anyway.

On Sunday, Jay and I went for a Pulau Ketam trip. As usual his late half an hour. It's raining heavily some more in the morning. I was like thinking to myself how to go to pulau ketam with the weather like this. If it still continue even at Pulau Ketam how the heck are we going to walk sight see.

I had to do a wake up call for him so that it goes as time planned. Still late also. Haizz... Anyway i waited in home and then he sms-ed me. Here goes the sms thread at 10:45:45am

Jay: At drop off dy lo :-D
Me: Huh????
Jay:Ur college lo :-D
(I seriously was shocked out when i read it and i quickly replied while thinking "Shit. I already told dear i am at home. Now there goes the time wasted")
Me: rumah larh
Jay: Hehe lg jk d la :-D
Me: How to go pulau ketam? Raining somemore.. lp waiting
Jay:Can d la :-D raining more romantic d :-D

Reading the last sms make me felt i want to faint flat on the floor. Romantic worh..

Anyway after he picked me up at 11:35am, i straight away directed him to the destination from my home. I was afraid directing him to the wrong place because i do have poor sense of direction you know. I only know how to direct a person to a place only when i see the road and the place. In other words i need to be with that person asking for direction.

There i was focus in giving instruction telling him that we need to follow the sign road to Port Klang while chatting. Don't know how we landed up near Pulau Indah and in NKPZ (Nort Klang Port Zone). I was like "OMFGBBQSAUCEFML!!!!" in the car. It was already past 12:30pm. We must have missed the sign.

Still anyway we need to do a turn and finally we saw the sign that says "Jeti ke Pulau Ketam 2 km", i was like YEAAAAA!!!!!! Finally saw it.. but then we don't know wheres the jetty is located. So Jay parked his car in Giant to use the toilet then we went to ask someone for the direction. AMWAY sales girl. When i ask for it, the girl was smilling at us and she say "It's very easy from here". She took a piece of paper and draw us a map to tell us head to the end of the lrt stattion port klang there and you could see the jetty there.

We got there and we had to park our car.We got to a speed boat which took us about 30 minutes to the island.The ticket can be purchased on board. Is air conditioned and less sea motion.If you take the sampan boat then it will be 45 minutes. For those who have sea sick highly not recommended.




It was a busy island for a Sunday because there a lot of tourist there. The restaurant was a lot of people including the market place.

The picture of the market place.


The sell a lot of dried sea foods and snacks.For a small island is all complete with all necessaries needs. You can find market, hair saloon, schools, place of worships, police station, fire station, cybercafe, pub or clubs(all ahpek outside paying fuse ball.. ahahaha) and MAYBANK2U.. lol..

One of the few tourist attraction was the Chinese temple. Thank god for i researched about the island first before going there and saves a lot of time because we are not blindly go lorh..

Just a random thingy that i want to post to educate my readers on how to tame your temper.
The reason why i posted this up because i realized people around me nowadays have a problem in controlling their anger.

As you all know, poorly managed anger can damage your health, work and your relationships. Here's how to get young anger under control.

Exercise Physical exertion can help for brief, short-term anger.

Write a letter Explain your anger in words- you don't have to send it.
Cool off "In an acute angry stage, it's a good idea not to confront the person straightaway," says Edelman.

Don't throw a tantrum "It's a popular myth that venting anger is always the best strategy'" says Edelman. "Venting can cause more problem than its solves. It can impair good relationships and it's not good role-modelling for kids"

Communicate Slow down and think about what you want to say. Explain that yoou feel angry about something rather than acing aggressively. Listen carefully to the other person before you respond.

Use humour If you think of the co-worker as a dirt bag, visualize them as a dirt bag going about their day.

Seek alternatives If the daily commute provokes uncontrollable road rage, consider different tranport forms or a job closer to home.

Pros and cons Ask yourself " Is the anger achieving anything, or is it just hurting me?" Edelman warns,"Some people are reluctant to let go anger because they see that as a victory to the other person."

Problem-solve Ask yourself, "Is there anything i can do about this problem?" If not more move on.

Acceptance Recognise that some things in life just aren't fair. "Sometimes we have to accept that injustice is a part of life"

First of all, don't tolerate abuse. If someone is angry but not hostile, validating their perspective can help diffuse the situation.
Anyway saying "sorry" can work wonders if you have done something to provoke anger.
So to my readers, tame your anger please because i will not tolerate this kind of treatment any longer. I do not deserve such treatment and i believe you all to.

That's all peace yo~~~~ d(^0^d)