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Just thoughts

Have you ever thought that when you said "I accept you as who you are as a gay does not matter to me" done thoughtfully. Being a gay if you were not in my shoe is different. Is hard to know the feelings of a man who loves a man. A man who holds a man hand. A man who have sex with a man.

If you were to accept just because you want to be open minded and being you know like the new generation, you were just being ignorant. Well if you were to think ignorance is a bliss in this matter you were wrong.

I did post thing sexually in my blog. If you are one of the persons who knows my sexuality, accepts me as who i am but to be irked and disgusted about other areas where i received someone who inserts it well, i can say that you ain't ready to accept me. Freedom of choice is in your hand.

If i were to tell you i am gay, and you were forcefully to tell me that acceptance word, i will be hurt. If you are not comfortable with me and want to cut ties with me, be my guest. I don't mind. The lesser friends i have, the better so i can spent more time with my dear.

My blog is a place where i can write everything i want. Is my blog. I can post anything i want. If this is not the cup of your tea please don't come back and don't read it. Don't talk behind people back to other and pretend to be nice to me in front of me and so to my other friends behind their back. Dare to confront. Then i will give you a piece of my bitch slap.

I heard from my friend that someone is talking behind his back of being gay. In his case there is a conflict in him. The news is true and the other part of him afraid that the family will know. Well if you were worried that your identity is exposed and the news reaches the ears of your family, dig the person out. If i were you i will do it.
Asian culture normally disgraces homosexuality. Is a shameful thing to have that will hurt the pride and dignity of a family other than adultery. Asians have a hard time accepting it. Not like the west. Asians hold strong to the core value where a man must marries a women and continue the legacy and generation of the family.

Since you know my blog ain't suitable for you, i ain't going to put a warning sign for my blog to warn readers or invite readers. If you were a smart reader you know what to do. The same goes to shopping. A smart shopper knows how to spend wisely. Same as opposed to smart reader. You know what good or bad for yourself. Choose wisely.

1. Marry the right person. this one decision will determine 90% of yours happiness or misery.

2.Work at something you enjoy and that's worthy of your time and talent.

3.Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.

4. Become the most positive and enthusiastic person you know.

5.Be forgiving for yourself and others.

6.Be generous.

7.Have a grateful heart.

8.Persistence, persistence, persistence.

9. Discipline yourself to save money on even the modest salary.

10.Treat everyone you meet like you want to be treated.

11.Commit yourself to constant improvement.

12.Commit yourself to quality.

13.Understand that happiness is not based on possession, power or prestige, but on relationship with people you love and respect.

14.Be loyal.

15.Be honest.

16.Be a self-starter.

17.Be decisive even if it means you'll sometimes be wrong.

18.Stop blaming others. Take responsibility for every area of your life.

19.Be bold and courageous. When you look back on your life, you'll regret the thing you didn't do more than the ones you did.

20.Take good care of those you love.

21.Don't do anything that wont make your MOM proud.

22.Drink BLACK CANYON COFFEE not Starbucks.

Jay and I had planned of going out together since last week and decided the day which was last Sunday. Originally it was Saturday then he called me up to tell me he can't make it on Saturday to his workload.

I only got to meet him after his art class on Sunday. I was having class too. I couldn't called him as my call credits expired that day. So he had to keep sending messages to me. The messages are as followings;

wait lg o :-*01:05:01pm
Lp, lg pick you up at 4+pm after art class 02:11:10pm

I'm so happy that i finally got to meet him again after all this while with his workload and me with my studies. I missed him so badly. We only got to talk with each other through all sort of communication method available. Once that we are so near to each other yet we are so far apart like the trip to Penang. He was in his hometown while I had vacation there.

He arrived earlier than i thought. So i had to ask my lecturer that i had to leave. She granted the permission and i delayed a bit as i need to pass the attendance list back to the office. While we are in the car, we talked quite a lot. I missed everything on him, the presence mostly.

Well we had our lunch in McDonald and dang myself for eating fast food again. I have been taking care for the last few weeks and here i go compromising myself of the urge in not eating fast food.
Point to note: I did taking fast food every morning in McDonald after gym and guessed what i gain 5-6kg of weight in 2 weeks time. Is very unhealthy but at least I'm doing exercise. After that sick of fast food, stopped consuming it and drop back to my original weight. Ish..
Well i noticed that all the time people look at me. I'm not a perasan fella here. The senses will tell you. So i walked in to the McDonald with Jay and noticed people from all around there was looking at me but i pretended not to see them. I look for placed to sit down while Jay order it for me.

We talked a lot and we called each other laugong and laupuo. Out of a sudden a Malay lady speaks in Mandarin. We were shocked. Not shocked about her speaking Mandarin but wondering whether she heard us calling each other with the nick name. "Oh well, who cares" Jay says.
After eating we went back home and i asked him whether the house is it clean. He replied to me "Well after you cleaned up, now it is 2 time worst"I was so shocked when i heard it and i got heart attack at the spot when i saw it. I wanted to faint immediately. I gave him a whack on the shoulder and is good to see he suffers in pain. Vital point... hahaha.. well he went to gym after so long of absence his body is aching.

I forced him to clean up together with me. My gosh i wished i can post the picture but my camera was out of battery. But i can describe it. Plastics every where, clothes, socks everywhere, money and coins everywhere, dustbin unused... Enough of description. Say more, I'll faint.
After cleaning up, we went to rest in the room. We were watching TV awhile. Miao was in the room with us, I was playing with the miao and Jay was hugging me from behind. After watching the TV session, Jay wanted me to massage his body for him. Well i promised to do it for him. He need me to take off his shirt for him as his shoulder is hurting badly. Haiz... this is what you get for not continuously going to workout.

Then he lies face down on the bed and i have to massage for him. I felt so like a massage boy working in a massage shop. I have zero experience in this and just used what i got when i massage for my parents. There he lies down and massage from top to toe. Ever my first time to see his butt so clearly..So round. Round and round. OMG!!!

There i was sitting on top of his butt and massage his shoulder and neck and his back. His whole body is so hot because i kept massage the same area but without the same technique lorh.. He said it is nice. Then he wanted me to massage all the parts.

i forgot to do that method. I should the very next time to crack his leg.. muohahaha

Me: "Laupuo should be paid for doing this. Massage outside per hour is like 60-80rm."
Jay:"You done it before?"
Me: "No"
Jay: "How you know?"
Me: "This stuff can be heard from people anyway"

Then he asked me to take off his undies too. After that he face front.


He was having a hard on. Then he said "massage the chest please"
I was half clothed therefore i need to take off my pants too because before that i was wearing my pants. There i sat down with his hard on between my cheek butt. I was playing with his dick and rubbing it in between and it went harder. I laid down and i gave him a kiss and continue the service.After the whole massage we lied down on the bed and kissed each other. Then were hugging each other and i started to stroke his slowly and he had his hand reached to my anus and scrotum. I kissed his neck and play with his ear. He moaned when i kissed his ears. Then i went on top him and kissed him.

We kissed passionately on the bed. He kissed my neck and his hand wrap tight on my waist as i stroke mine with his on the body. He apparently love the feeling of the two cocks rubbing with each other( frottage). Slowly I kissed his neck,his nipple and licked all over his body. I enjoyed it as he was moaning. I reached for his cock and stroke it for awhile before putting into my mouth. I feel his harden cock in my mouth. I suck it deep down and play it in my mouth 360 degree. After that i went to lick his tip head and the moaning sensation of his pleasure sent shivers down to my spine... I just love the feeling!!! I went back to kiss him again. Our tongues were playing together inside.

After that he forced me down and he was on top of me. Kissing me and sucking my nipple. Then his hand reached for my anus and gently playing with it while kissing me. He went to apply his lubricant on his cock and apply some on my shaft. He lifted up my leg and put it on his shoulder. The next moment he put it in, it was so painful.

For your information: My tunnel is very tight because for the past nearly 6 months it was been servicing. Not in used.

I moaned in pain and all my eyes, nose and mouth sticked together because of the pain. My hand was grabbing his butt tightly. Then he say "I do it slowly then" He put in slightly and played with it for awhile. Later i felt the enjoyment and he put in back. He fucked me gradually and it became faster and it was missionary position. I moaned so hardly.


Then he grab my legs together and then lifted me up a bit and fuck me hard. I moaned harder as i can feel the thrust of his cock are completely in. After that we changed to spoon position. He ask me to lie face down at the side of the bed and then he fuck me from behind. I spread my wide and he put his cock in me and i was enjoying it so much. He fucked me so hard that i grab his hair. He reached to my lips and kissed me wildly. He enjoyed the session so much as he keep fucking hard and breathing through his mouth. I moaned so loudly every time he fasten the pace.

Unknowingly we were in doggy position as i had my hand pushed up from the bed and raised my hip. He grab my hip and fucking me wildly. After that he pushed me face down to the bed back and put my leg together as he leg spread up and hump me hard. The sound of the humping was so loud and i got so high up. Our body temperature was rising and i can feel he is starting to sweat. His body was so closely to my back. Our hands were clinching together tightly and he was moaning beside my ear. As i turn my face, he kissed me.

Then he pull out his cock out and went and lie down on the bed. I was on my knee and I grab his cock and insert it into my shaft. As i insert fully in, he moaned so loudly. He enjoyed it every time. Then my hand was on his chest and i slowly ride it up and down. Later he got up to me and holding my waist and we are in pounding on the spot position. I was sitting on the top and my legs were wrapped against his. We were kissing again as we hold each other tightly.

He asked me to hold him tightly suddenly and i obliged. My arm wrap around his neck and he carried me up and fucked me hard. He turned around and placed me back on the bed and fucked me hard. He cummed in me and was lying on top of me to rest while i hugged him tight.Both of us were sweating. His cock was still in the tunnel and started to stroke my dick hard while another one played with my nipple. I moaned and shoot a load on to my chest. He pulled out his dick from my anus and we give each other a kissed.

After that we went shower together and then we rested awhile. Jay was swearing his clothes while i make the bed. Then he sat down next to me and ask me to pull his white hair off. He had quite off a white hair strands. All due to work pressure his hair despite being 25 only. He looked so cute while sitting on the bed while i pulled off one boy one. There this one strand i failed to pull it out and he show his cute pain face like a kid. HAHAHAHA!!!

Then we went out for dinner. After dinner we planned to go Tesco Extra to shop but time was a bit late and after dinner he fetched me back home. We talked in the car, he ask me "How was the session?"
I said "Hmmm.. nice. Laupo love it.." and smile. Our hands were together all the time until back to my home. He kissed me from afar "Muack" and i muack him back. This is kinda our signature mark lorh... HAHAHAHA!!


p/s: laupo will upload the Penang trip picture soon. Muack.. (he reads and bookmark my blog too.. a very silent reader)